When I listen back

to my clips that I posted in youtube....

OMG! I can't stand my own voice!

In music, it is always hard to realise how bad we have done playing the music. At that moment, all we can think of is:

"I've done my best, no regret!" - William Hung.

True. When you are playing a piece or music, you can't really actually know what you have been playing. You always think that you have already played very nicely and wonderful. But in the end, your performance is all about, whether you can capture your audience's heart or not.

So after so many months of recording the stuff, I opened them back again today.

When You Say Nothing At All
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sbKYvTvu2Iw&feature=player_embedded

True - Ryan Cabrera.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RQr1c9oD190&feature=player_embedded

These two songs are still okay. They are sung softly. I still could control my voice.

But this one:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5VXgWI8Ukq8&feature=player_embedded

I can't control my voice. I have a bad voice that time.

And these are the unforgivable ones:

Bad Apples - Nomico
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HTE4365fJlU

Sayonara Memories - Nagi
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LXdeIUArFtg

I always thought that I'm a soprano, I can sing high notes.
During the recording of this two tracks, I also feel that: Hey! Not bad! I can sing high notes.

But hey! Today I just realise that, I couldn't catch the pitch accurately. I couldn't change from real to fake voice smoothly, and I couldn't produce an unstressful high pitch. (Yeah, the high pitch part makes me sounds like I'm scolding people).

OMG!

Luckily I record them down. Now I have a reason to improve. Yeah! Improve myself :)

Oh and don't forget my birthday party's performance, this one is consider not bad :)

Lemon Tree - Tracy Su & Top of the world - The Carpenters.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PDVIrLemIkY

Enjoy!